I had a strange and slightly frightening thing happen this morning.
I lost an hour.
I was running late. I forgot to set my alarm, so I had about 15 minutes to get from bed to out the door. I got dressed, ate my breakfast, and then sat down on the couch to figure out what I needed in my backpack and get it ready. It was close to 10:00 and I was right on the edge of making it out of the house on time. I was wide awake and in a hurry. I was sitting on the edge of the couch so I could move books around, and that’s when it happened…
whatever ‘it’ is.
As far as I remember, the next thing that happened was that I grabbed my water bottle and went to the kitchen to fill it. However, the clock in the kitchen said it was 10:56. That’s not right, I thought, and pulled my phone out of my pocket to check the time. But my phone agreed with the clock in the kitchen.
There are a number of things that could have caused this. However, this isn’t the first time I’ve done this, just the most severe.
As a child, I’d have this happen many times. It would be spells of just a few minutes, and not common enough that my parents thought it was a problem. They thought I was just daydreaming, but that isn’t what happens. It is like I pause while reality keeps going. At least back then, I’d pull out on my own in a few minutes, or if I was touched or something broke my line of sight. I often would ‘come to’ with a bit of a jerk, like you would if you had just woken up.
I’m remembering now as an undergrad and as a grad student times when this may have happened but I assumed I had fallen asleep. As I just mentioned, there tends to be a jerk when I get to being ‘present’ again, and I can’t tell you for certain which happened when. I do suspect that some of the times that I jerked back to awareness involved this lack of presence, but I don’t know how many.
So, as soon as my insurance gets straightened out next week, I suppose I’ll be seeing my doctor, and probably being sent off to a neurologist. You know how much I needed another specialist *rolls her eyes*